Existential Friday Newsletter

v37: How Do You Find Your Way Back To Yourself?

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Do you ever feel a little lost? Like you aren’t sure of what you want or where you’re going.

We might even look inward and say, “Hello self.  What is it that you want?” And then we wait . . . and the self doesn’t say anything.

Sometimes the next step is getting mad, “Self, what the hell!”

Anger is often followed by pleading, “Come on. What is it that I want? Please tell me.”

And of course, desperation, “Self, I will do anything if you just make it clear. I can’t live this way anymore.”
Wow, it just got heavy.

As you go through the feelings above, it’s natural to ask other people what they think. We’ll usually end up back at the first question if we listen.

Lack of certainty is natural and suggests missing awareness. Sometimes we’re to blame. We block access to the self with work or booze or mindless distractions. Other times, we inherit the barriers growing up and as we go through life. Without awareness of the barriers, we feel stuck.

So why does it matter? It’s seemingly easy to be a well adjusted human being or at least pretend to be one. We just do normal (aka socially acceptable) human type things. But what if you feel like you’re just waiting it out? Like the normal human thing isn’t working for you and there’s something more or something missing. That feeling of something missing is where it gets more challenging and when seeking greater self-awareness becomes necessary.

Self-awareness has the power to set us free. You become an observer of yourself and your feelings rather than a puppet. You can observe emotions, make better choices, and be more creative.

The benefits of greater self-awareness are wide reaching and they’re not limited to fu-fu spiritual stuff. It creates the potential to live with greater meaning and purpose. The benefits will flow into your relationships, work, and your art. Whatever “your art” means to you.

Check out this article for more on Self-Awareness.



Casey Reas is one of the creators of the Processing Language and makes some incredible generative art. See some of it in this interview.


This tune really sets the mood.


This is a longer read and totally worth it . . . Hunter S. Thompson’s, “The Kentucky Derby is Decadent and Depraved.” Recommendation: play the Gary B.B. Coleman song up above and read it.

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