Welcome, this is the first monthly newsletter. Going forward these will arrive sometime in the first week or so of the month.
The newsletter is a way for me to share what I’m thinking about, working on, and working towards. Today, we’re going to talk about clarity.
Little Pieces of Clarity
If you’ve read my writing for any period of time, you know I have wide ranging interests. This site started as Existential Friday, then it became Seeking Outside with focus on the outdoors. I wrote one article about the outdoors and then moved towards generative and abstract art.
One of the things I’ve struggled with in the past is consistency. We live in a world where specialization is held up as some type of ideal and range is frequently looked down upon. I spent years trying to focus on things and it was never natural. Recently I decided to give up.
Over the past few years (since I got sober in 2012), I’ve started to listen to myself more. It hasn’t been easy and it has absolutely not happened all at one time. It’s been more like a slow, painful slog up a mountain with lots of false peaks. You think you’re at the top and then you pop over a ridge to see that the ground keeps on rising.
There are many options when you get to a new false peak. You can keep going, go back, or pause to think about things. Right now it feels a little like I’m in that thinking about things phase with the knowledge that I’m going to keep going.
Backing away from the analogy, I want to make to make things, I like bright colors, and I love thinking about what things mean (existentialism and why). I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about how those things fit into a cohesive theme and I’ve come to the definitive conclusion that I don’t know YET. What I know is that it involves writing, learning, sharing, and making beautiful things. Basically, I’m going to do those things and whatever else feels right.
I’ve done a lot of things over the years because I “should” and I’ve been working really hard to break that tendency. Lately I’ve been waking up every day with the realization that I want to make, share, and sell art. It’s just what my inner voice is asking me to do. I’m doing my best to listen even though it isn’t always easy.
All of us have heard that it’s not advisable to pursue art as a career. For someone who only recently started making art and has an Accounting/Finance background, it seems exceptionally laughable. It’s almost as ridiculous as, say, quitting your job as a CPA to become a professional options trader and then (gasp) succeeding.
Ultimately, the pursuit of unlikely outcomes is a hell of a lot more interesting (and scary) than the traditional path. I could absolutely write and talk about something more practical, but I greatly prefer laughable and unlikely. For me, clarity comes over time and through action.
At any rate, that’s the direction we’re headed. Glad to have you along. Thanks for reading, Dan.
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